I never want you until you're gone, and I can't believe how much I needneedneed you but don't at the same time. And I want to breathe you in and never let go, but you're going to have to leave and go away. Not now, not right now, but soon. Not soon, but then. And I never want then to come, because I'll miss you sososo much, and I knowpretendhope you'll miss me too.
I keep thinkingthinkingthinking about things that probably don't mean anything but mean everything to me because I can't stop thinkthinkthinking about them.
And I keep trying (trying so hard) to be original but I'm not and it kills me. No one is completely original, because we're all human, all the same, all made of the same particles and atoms that have made up people and things from millions and millions of years ago, and we're all the same but I have no "new" ideas. Nothing as newexcitingnice as whatever you can come up with because you're absolutelywonderfullybeautifully diffrent. And everyone notices and I know they do. I wishwishwish they didn't, because then I wouldn't have to share because I'm completely selfish and want you all to myself.
And I don't know how I really feel, or how to think, or how to breathe anymore. I need you there to show me how to breathe because I can't breathe without you. At least, I don't think so, and I just don't want to find out. I can breathe with you here and it's all I need to know.
I knowknowknow you and I don't want to learn anything else. Or maybe I can learn but not without you because I keep missmissmissing you and I don't know what to do about it.